'08, Looking Back....

2008 has been a year of nothing but change. Starting the year off I had recently fallen back into an emotionally abusive relationship that lasted on and off for almost three years. I let him pretty much control my mind, my life even though we were in a long distance situation. He pulled a few "stunts" that made me take a step back. I finally realized what type of situation I was in and got the courage to break things off. It was hard, I didn't know what to do. Part of me longed to be with him but part of me knew it was a bad situation. Fortunately I had some good friends to pull me out of the deep pit i had fallen into. I still felt that there was something missing. So I had met another guy down here in VA. and he claimed to be a completely different person than he rally was. It just made me realize that I didnt need to be in a relationship to be happy. Come march my very good friend asked me if i wanted to join her at church one Sunday morning. I went with her and enjoyed listening to the sermon and the music, but i just felt like i didn't belong. So I did some research, then came across articles in the paper about an Easter egg drop a local church was doing. So I looked into it, Waters Edge Church. I noticed they had just started doing evening services which was perfect for my crazy hectic work schedule. The very first night I had attended, I felt instantly connected with God. Not growing up in church this was all new to me. I loved their crazy pastor, the awesome band, the whole atmosphere. So I returned the next Sunday and i just knew i had found what i was missing all along.

To be continued...

I can only Imagine...

Today is my moms birthday, she would have been 54. It has been four almost 5 years scince she has passwed awy unexpectadly. I love this song because it not only reminds me of but also makes me realize that she is in God's Hands and is now living a much better life, Happy Birthday Mom!

Christmas Aftermath

Well, Christmas has come and gone quite quickly. This is the second year not spending Christmas with my dad and sisters. Unlike last year this year was very hard being away from them. Christmas did have some high points however. The first being Christmas Eve at Waters Edge Church. What an awesome service!!!! Seeing my cousins young children and the excitement in their eyes when the realized Santa had come. I also received some good presents this year, a new purse, a northface jacket, an xm radio and some gift cards. But most of all I learned the real purpose behind Christmas and it made me appreciate the holiday more than ever...

Why Printers Dont Work....

Tooo Funny!

Tacky Sweater Party!!!

Last Night I attended a tacky sweater party with some great friends and of course Rob Shep's Awesome chocolate chip cookies!!! I posted a few pics below:

My Nativity Scene!

This is my Nativity Scene I inherited. This was my grandmothers nativity scene that she used to set up with my mother when she was younger. I'm very happy to now have it in my hands!

Tacky Christmas!!

What is it about making christmas tacky? I know it is alot of fun, from white elephant gift exchange to tacky sweater parties to way overly decorated yards! I mean how much does ones power bill go up at christmas time?? I know its a way of getting into the spirit but come on now, do we really needd all those lights and blow up thingy-ma-bobs?!?! What is your favorite tacky part in celebrating christmas??

"Find out who your friends are..."

That would be a song to a country song, i believe. This week I was given 5 days of vacation, so I packed my bags and headed north. I am currently in maryland visiting family and friends. Tonight I got to spend with my best friend Kimmy V. It just so happens we have the same name and we have known each other for 20 years! Yep thats right we both are 20, we were born 4 months appart and our moms were best friends. Now we have shared are fair share of arguments that have torn us appart for days, weeks, months, but in the end we still remain friends. We have shared many of the struggle that life has thrown at us,we even found and accepted Christ at the same time unkown to one another. We got to look back on pictures from throug out the years of all the great memories we have shared. I honestly believe God has placed eachother together for some purpose or another. I know get the privlage of being her maid of honor come april! THis trip home has made not only realize how strong i have become in the past year but also helped me find out who my friends really are. I may have been blown off by two supposed "friends", but i got to spend some great time with my best friend.

Family outside your family...

Well, yesterday at church they played my story of finding waters edge church and how much it has changed my life. My story was played along with three others. I attended the morning service and volunteered at the night service. After both services I had several people, most i had never met before come up to me. They wanted to thank me for sharing my story or just to give me a hug. Thats why I love waters edge because it really is a family outside your family, A big church family. It is amazing how many people go out of their way to say thanks or just a simple hello. I must say that I love being part of such a big family. :-)

I'll be home for Christmas, maybe....

There is just something about being home this time of year.Recently I have been longing to be home in maryland with the family, my dad and sisters. Due to work i havnt been able to go home and its killing me. I have even asked for vacation days to go home but they refuse to give them to me. Right now i feel like home is where the heart is and i really want to be there. I miss the familiar smell of the childhood home, dads home cookin, good times with the sisters, the dogs, memories...... I even would like to go to the memorial gardens to visit my mom. Why is it that the holidays have brought out these feelings??? :-/

I'm working on trying to get my boss to let me go home to be with the family the day after christmas which is difficult to do, just need to rely on the power of prayer at the moment..

Thanksgiving!

I am quite excited about thanksgiving, other than working, im looking forward to it. Nothing beats family, turkey, pumpkin pie and great memories!! It is also a great time to stop and realize what we are most thankful for. What are you most thankful for? As for me, I am thankful for waters edge church for helping me get connected with christ. It has been an amazing past year and i have experienced things i never once thought i would exerience. My life has made a complete turn around scince accepting christ into my life!

Well I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!!!

~Kim

Finding Purpose...

Purpose, the one thing everyone strives for in life. Do you kow your purpose in life? Some of us have found it and others like me have not. I am patiently waiting for god to show me the way. I struggle with this thought day in and day out, I long to find purpose. How do you know when you have found it?

Jesus Calling....

Have you ever heard that one song on the radio that seems like god is speaking right to you? Well I downloaded 33 Miles' new cd One Life. I was driving to work this morning and heard this song. It has become one of my new favorites, i really connect with this song, take a listen! (:

Waiting Game....

We have all played it, it seems like there are many times where we are waiting and time passes slowly. Like when we were kids and on christmas eve we stayed up all night waiting for santa and it seems like the longest night ever. As we grow up into he teenage years there are many times were you get impatient and tired of waiting. Like getting your drivers liscense, your first taste of freedom. You had to deal with your learners permitt and driving with your parents and putting up with that dreaded drivers ed. Then the day comes and you sit in the dmv waiting what seems like hours on end. When you pass that test you were overfilled with joy,excitiment. It seems like there are many things in life that require waiting, wether good or bad. From getting accepted into college to waiting on news from the doctor. LAtely i have been playing the waiting game wih doctors. I go in, they tell me oh well we need to do this test, it will take two wweks for the reults. Thats been the past 4 months for me. I subjected to yet another medical test today to hopefully discover the cause of the pain. Now im just waiting, watching the clock tic. I have to wait another week and hopefully with time and patience i should soon have an answer!

Life's Roller coaster....

Have you ever felt like your life is ever a roller coaster? Well i sure do, it has had its fair share of ups but mostly downs. I feel like it all started when my mom passed away. She passed away suddenly, she was not ill or nothing. I still to this day ask the lord why he did such as a thing, but i've come to realize god already planned our lives. Not to far after she passed away then we lost our dog of 15 years, which was yet another devastating loss. After that the roller coaster began. Finishing out the end of my sophomore year while coping with the shock of losing my mom was a big accomplishment. Then due to some negative things that where said, i lost most of my friends. Graduating high school to getting a scholarship and going to pastry school. From struggling with a verbally abusive relationship for 3 years to moving to Virgina last year for my job. I love being a pastry cook but now i have been taken out of the kitchen due to pain that is caused by some unknown reason. I also found the lord this past year, and was baptized.Now slowly overcoming depression to living in a crazy hectic household where peace and relaxation after a long day is non-existent. I guess some days i just want to ask the lord, why? why do you make life so hard? But then i realize that god would never give us more than we can handle. Through all life's experience i can say i have become a stronger person but still struggle with many unanswered questions. Bellow is a bible verse that helps me battle through my emotions.

God Bless


“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

[Isaiah 41:10 NIV]

I want one of these!!!

How awesome would that be to get home like that? Imagine what we would save on gas, haha!

Disney Dreams

Well I recently ventured away on a disney cruise, which was amazing! While on the cruise we went to see a show called disney dreams and enchanted story. During this show a girl wished she could come to life in all her favorite disney stories, from little mermaid to lion king. Disney did an amazing job with this show and let me tell you it made me feel like a kid all over again! This was a clip i found on youtube, this was one of my favorite scenes from the show, complete with real bubbles!! Its great to feel like a kid once and awhile!!!

Christmas is.....

Here too soon!!!!

My goodness, we are not even halfway through november and it seems as if wherever you go christmas is to be found! Dont get me wrong I love christmas but it seems like year after year christmas seems to come earlier. It makes everyone all bah-humbug by the time christmas rolls around! I really didnt like shopping for halloween candy while listening to jingle bells, come on people give us a break!!!!! Please keep christmas to yourselves till december! For you people out there who are in full christmas swing,bah humbug to you!!!!(till december that is)

Pastries and broken dreams

Well as you all know I work in the restaurant business, i was a pastry cook but due to a stubborn arm i have had to step down. I am moving to a coffee shop at work selling the pastries, not making them. Its a real bummer for me I have always thought i had a passion for this field of work ever since i can remember. However it seems almost now as i look at it, was this my dream or was this my way of pleasing my dad? I almost feel like I'm sticking it out to please him, now i am becoming more aware of these feelings and its like god is speaking to me about something, i just can figure out what...

The question here is, is this gods way of telling me to change my career? In todays economy, which we all is pretty crummy, the restaurant business seems to be heading down the drain. It seems as if there are no hours to be found, so you spend the day dragging out the most non time consuming tasks to make that extra hour on your check. Why should i be miserable to make my dad happy, this is after all my life. I have spent the last few days pondering on what to do next, should i go back to school? Find another job? What? I'm praying that god will eventually lead me in the right direction.

God Bless,
Kim

Im Getting Baptized!!!!

Thats right, Kim is getting baptized in 5 days! Im super stoked!! I will be getting baptized at the ground breaking for WEC. I accepted christ for the first time in my life back in april and this is the next step. I fully believe god is truly working in my life right now and i couldnt be any happier! He has completly turned my life around and is my purpose for living. I know im at the start of my walk but it can only get better from here, I have great friends that are helping me down this new path of life and to them thank you. I hope you all are having a fantastic week!

~God Bless
Kim

P.C.O.S.

Well, is official i have polycystic ovarian syndrome. There is a big ol description behind that title, but to make a long story short this is something that is teatable not curable. It also menas that in the future when i find mr right(lol), its gonna possibly take some work to have children. Now most women would be very upset at the thought of that. But with my new life in christ, ive come to realize that god has a plan for all of us. He has given me this condition for some reason at which i cant explain at the moment. The one thing I do know is that god is with me every step of the way.

God Bless,
Kim

First Blog!

Well folks, I too have fallen into the world of blogging,check back later for a new blog!