My walk thus far...

Well it is coming up on aboutnine months scince Christ was first brought into my life. Going into my walk my life was a mess, like a puzzle missing its pieces. Once I accepted Christ, I finally felt like i had found the missing piece I had been longing to find. It has been amazing, I honestly dont know where my life would not be with out him. I have been lucky to be able to find an amazing, amazing church, Waters Edge Church. With a great pastor and staff to the people who are always there. I have learned so much, like this past sunday Rob Sheperd tought and Amazing sermon, it answered all the questions about gods view on the birds and the bees. It all clicked, made sense. God puts an amzing perspective on every apect of life. I also took a few moments tonight to watch the ground breaking baptism video, it still and prob always will bring tears to my eyes, take a look:

Top Chef!

Well Folks, tonight is the season finale of my favorite show, Top Chef. This season has been awesome because Carla, who is one of the finalists attended the same culinary school as me. We graduated a few years apart but have crossed paths at various school functions. Just wanted to ask y'all to root for her tonight! Its on Bravo at 10pm.

Back to Blogging!

Well I have been MIA for a bit for one main reason. I have just needed some thinking time. I have been trying what to do as far as my future is concerned. I have been job searching for quite sometime and each person tells me that i'm not qualified for anything but pastry work. The bad thing is that i can no longer do pastry work due to my hand problems. So as of right now I am still at kingsmill working as many hours as i an get. The way its looking i may have to give up volunteering at church on sunday evenings to get the hours i need. I am now considering going back to school just hoping and praying that i dont have any finacial road blocks like i have had in the past. I hoping with local college i wont ned to apply for finacial aid but if so that can lead to problems. I need my dads information to apply for aid up untill i am 24,crazy! Im hoping nothing will hold me back this time! We will just have to wait and see!

Well...

I have made the decesion to STAY here!!! Its not been an easy one, but i think its in my best intrest to stay for a while longer. As i have been praying about this i have come to realize that my healing process, while it may seem like its done, isnt quite there yet. Scince moving down here i have healed in so many ways, but there is still some excess baggage to deal with. Now i am still at kingsmill but the next step is praying one of the many job applications will turn something up!! Stay tuned!

Motherless Daughters

"I am fooling only myself when I say my mother exists now only in the photograph on my bulletin board or in the outline of my hand or in the armful of memories I still hold tight. She lives on in everything I do. Her presence influenced who I was, and her absence influences who I am. Our lives are shaped as much by those who leave us as they are by those who stay. Loss is our legacy. Insight is our gift. Memory is our guide."
--Hope Edelman, Motherless Daughters

I have been reading this book slowly. It was a recomendation from my therapist. It has been nothing but helpful for me. I finally found a place i can turn to when no one understands exactly how i feel.Its a great read for anyone in this type of situation.