I'll be home for Christmas, maybe....

There is just something about being home this time of year.Recently I have been longing to be home in maryland with the family, my dad and sisters. Due to work i havnt been able to go home and its killing me. I have even asked for vacation days to go home but they refuse to give them to me. Right now i feel like home is where the heart is and i really want to be there. I miss the familiar smell of the childhood home, dads home cookin, good times with the sisters, the dogs, memories...... I even would like to go to the memorial gardens to visit my mom. Why is it that the holidays have brought out these feelings??? :-/

I'm working on trying to get my boss to let me go home to be with the family the day after christmas which is difficult to do, just need to rely on the power of prayer at the moment..

Thanksgiving!

I am quite excited about thanksgiving, other than working, im looking forward to it. Nothing beats family, turkey, pumpkin pie and great memories!! It is also a great time to stop and realize what we are most thankful for. What are you most thankful for? As for me, I am thankful for waters edge church for helping me get connected with christ. It has been an amazing past year and i have experienced things i never once thought i would exerience. My life has made a complete turn around scince accepting christ into my life!

Well I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!!!

~Kim

Finding Purpose...

Purpose, the one thing everyone strives for in life. Do you kow your purpose in life? Some of us have found it and others like me have not. I am patiently waiting for god to show me the way. I struggle with this thought day in and day out, I long to find purpose. How do you know when you have found it?

Jesus Calling....

Have you ever heard that one song on the radio that seems like god is speaking right to you? Well I downloaded 33 Miles' new cd One Life. I was driving to work this morning and heard this song. It has become one of my new favorites, i really connect with this song, take a listen! (:

Waiting Game....

We have all played it, it seems like there are many times where we are waiting and time passes slowly. Like when we were kids and on christmas eve we stayed up all night waiting for santa and it seems like the longest night ever. As we grow up into he teenage years there are many times were you get impatient and tired of waiting. Like getting your drivers liscense, your first taste of freedom. You had to deal with your learners permitt and driving with your parents and putting up with that dreaded drivers ed. Then the day comes and you sit in the dmv waiting what seems like hours on end. When you pass that test you were overfilled with joy,excitiment. It seems like there are many things in life that require waiting, wether good or bad. From getting accepted into college to waiting on news from the doctor. LAtely i have been playing the waiting game wih doctors. I go in, they tell me oh well we need to do this test, it will take two wweks for the reults. Thats been the past 4 months for me. I subjected to yet another medical test today to hopefully discover the cause of the pain. Now im just waiting, watching the clock tic. I have to wait another week and hopefully with time and patience i should soon have an answer!

Life's Roller coaster....

Have you ever felt like your life is ever a roller coaster? Well i sure do, it has had its fair share of ups but mostly downs. I feel like it all started when my mom passed away. She passed away suddenly, she was not ill or nothing. I still to this day ask the lord why he did such as a thing, but i've come to realize god already planned our lives. Not to far after she passed away then we lost our dog of 15 years, which was yet another devastating loss. After that the roller coaster began. Finishing out the end of my sophomore year while coping with the shock of losing my mom was a big accomplishment. Then due to some negative things that where said, i lost most of my friends. Graduating high school to getting a scholarship and going to pastry school. From struggling with a verbally abusive relationship for 3 years to moving to Virgina last year for my job. I love being a pastry cook but now i have been taken out of the kitchen due to pain that is caused by some unknown reason. I also found the lord this past year, and was baptized.Now slowly overcoming depression to living in a crazy hectic household where peace and relaxation after a long day is non-existent. I guess some days i just want to ask the lord, why? why do you make life so hard? But then i realize that god would never give us more than we can handle. Through all life's experience i can say i have become a stronger person but still struggle with many unanswered questions. Bellow is a bible verse that helps me battle through my emotions.

God Bless


“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

[Isaiah 41:10 NIV]

I want one of these!!!

How awesome would that be to get home like that? Imagine what we would save on gas, haha!

Disney Dreams

Well I recently ventured away on a disney cruise, which was amazing! While on the cruise we went to see a show called disney dreams and enchanted story. During this show a girl wished she could come to life in all her favorite disney stories, from little mermaid to lion king. Disney did an amazing job with this show and let me tell you it made me feel like a kid all over again! This was a clip i found on youtube, this was one of my favorite scenes from the show, complete with real bubbles!! Its great to feel like a kid once and awhile!!!

Christmas is.....

Here too soon!!!!

My goodness, we are not even halfway through november and it seems as if wherever you go christmas is to be found! Dont get me wrong I love christmas but it seems like year after year christmas seems to come earlier. It makes everyone all bah-humbug by the time christmas rolls around! I really didnt like shopping for halloween candy while listening to jingle bells, come on people give us a break!!!!! Please keep christmas to yourselves till december! For you people out there who are in full christmas swing,bah humbug to you!!!!(till december that is)

Pastries and broken dreams

Well as you all know I work in the restaurant business, i was a pastry cook but due to a stubborn arm i have had to step down. I am moving to a coffee shop at work selling the pastries, not making them. Its a real bummer for me I have always thought i had a passion for this field of work ever since i can remember. However it seems almost now as i look at it, was this my dream or was this my way of pleasing my dad? I almost feel like I'm sticking it out to please him, now i am becoming more aware of these feelings and its like god is speaking to me about something, i just can figure out what...

The question here is, is this gods way of telling me to change my career? In todays economy, which we all is pretty crummy, the restaurant business seems to be heading down the drain. It seems as if there are no hours to be found, so you spend the day dragging out the most non time consuming tasks to make that extra hour on your check. Why should i be miserable to make my dad happy, this is after all my life. I have spent the last few days pondering on what to do next, should i go back to school? Find another job? What? I'm praying that god will eventually lead me in the right direction.

God Bless,
Kim